Married, Working, and Still Reaching.

So much has happened.

1. I graduated.
2. Got engaged.
3. Got my RN License.
4. Married to my best friend. 
5. Moved to Georgia.
6. Started working as a nurse.

Marriage is great and I'm very blessed. Couldn't ask for anything better.  And yet, I'm longing for meaning and purpose.

What I've learned in the past few months:

• You can have everything you ever wanted and still feel like your life is meaningless. 
• You can be giving your best, getting verbal affirmation on a regular basis, and still, on the inside, feel like an utter failure or pretender.
• You can be a Christian and feel empty and depressed.
• Depression doesn't go away when life seems good.  Sometimes it gets worse.

The more I have, the more distance I put between me and God. 

Pull yourself up by the bootstraps.  Stop being lazy.  Pray.  Read your Bible.  Then you'll feel better.

But I can't seem to make it happen.  I just keep falling farther into my pit.